I need to lose more weight.

I just weighed myself again yesterday.

I'm still at the weight I was at, at the end of my last diet phase, whereas the dieting itself has gone to hell.

Think fattening food every weekend, for almost every meal. (Brother Lionel and Sister Johanna- it's all in a quest to find you good food.)

And fattening food every night.

Thank God for metabolism, even though my trainer says I basically have none.

Sheesh.

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I feel so bad about so many things I have been doing.

I have to stop.

I want to be a Joseph, or a Daniel.

Flee from temptation.

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OK,ok, here's the plan.

I attend hot yoga every morning, my weekly dance classes, and start my gym training (Mon, Tues, Fri & Sun evenings). (It sounds sadly ambitious, what with my work schedule and Matt, and church. But ambition is a feeling I've been sorely lacking recently. I wanna achieve!)

Then I adhere to the six small meals plan.

I'm sure to lose weight right?

Right?

Maybe I should stick to a no carb, no red meat, no dinner after 7.30 p.m. diet.

Wahlau, sure become skinny, like practically eat nothing but fruits and veg.

Oh never mind- healthiness here I come.

I just realised, it's been a while since i've seen rice.

Good.


Rice is evil.

Evil white rice.

Evil white bread.

Evil enriched white flour.


Evil.

Coffee and tea (with cream and sugar) is evil too.

And so is Satay.

And Cookies and Curry Puffs.

And Potatoes- (fried ones, as they can absorb up to 5 times their weight in oil. Gasp.)

I shall stick to healthy options.

It doesn't matter how many times you fall, its that you get up again to fight that counts.

Good bye fatness.
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It really sucks to be fat.

Fat, fat, fat, fat.

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I, am very happy.

I registered for my SAT.

After which, I will register for UNI, whether here or overseas, I dunno.

Oh Princeton.

My dream school.

Will you ever materialise?

Then, I am going into teaching.

I want to teach Secondary schools- English and English Literature.

I'm gonna put my dreams of fame and glory on the shelf for a while, and stabilise first.

Fame and glory can wait, I only seem to grow more beautiful after all.

tee hee.

I just want my degree.

I just want to be able to look forward progressing in life.

I have absolutely no interest in law.

That much is true.

I'm sorry, but I've tried.

I really have.

I just can't.

Not at all.

SO, yea.